January 30 2009
Am i depressed or what?….?
I cant seem to tell if im depressed or if im just at a bad part in my life…
I cant seem to be happy when im alone…
Alot has been going on in my life….im 19 and left handed
*a couple weeks ago i went to the doctor for a lack of concentration headaches,tiredness eyes watering at random timesand just general blahness… Cat-scans,X-rays and Blood work being done…still waiting on the results of the blood work…Cat scan showed i was born without frontal sinues
*Im openly Gay in a Uber religious family
*My college life is takin a major down fall, for reasons of bad professors and stuff within school and school if REALLY important to me..
*All my friends are find ppl to love, when im not able to even get a date-I’ve been shot down over 15 times already this month, I have never even been on a date, my friends try to set me up but no matter what im always stood up and I’ve been told im general good looking and have a great personality..so i dont know what wrong…
*My friends come to me for help within the lives, because im a good problem solver, i just can solve my own problems…
* I just started back on my ADD meds..
* I can seem to build muscle no matter how much i work out..and that bothers me
*In general happy when im with my friends, but i cant seem to be happy without them..and that bothers me
*My half brother has recently been dianosed with Autism and that has taken a toll on my father
-my family has a history of alcoholism, depression, thyriod disorders,diabeties graves disease and mood issues ..this is all on my fathers side and my mom worries constinatly that one of these will effect me
… I just don’t want to depend on pills to make me happy in life….
So i guess what im asking is from what yall can tell am i depressed or is my life just at one of this "down points" that i heard about and things will just get better?
Oh ya, - I was tested a couple years ago for thyriod disorders,diabeties graves disease and all that junk..everything came back A’OK…
is there really happy pills?…if so, I would also take it myself. There are actually sites in the internet to measure how deep your depression and how you can handle at certain levels. I myself tried some of the tests 3 or 4 times because I really believed that I was depressed for some reasons. Later on I found out that it was a Pre Menstrual Syndrome. Imagine, for more than half of the month I get depressed and only about a week that I would feel fine. There is a cure to this as clearly mentioned in the net. Maybe same with you. Try to take tests in the internet. Though we are of different sexes, we get depressed because of so many reasons. Then it’s up to you how to live your life.
not to get all religious on you, but you should pray. because recently i got really depressed and i started praying and reading the bible again (i hadnt for months) and then i started feeling better. it was like no matter what happened i had God. because He’s the only one who wont judge you and you can talk to HIm about anything. its probably one of the greatest feelings in the world. i swear it helps. it gives you so much peace that you dont even understand where its coming from. its greatt
Hello
how r u doing now hope better? From what I read I can feel that ur a quite cool guy, how ur friends likes u and seek help from u when they need. Perhaps ur depressed cause all the chaos going on ur investigations , college, dating and all . I think its time for ur friends to be for u as u were for them, and just open up. I’m sure after all the mess calms down things will get better for u. Hang on there.
good luck. Hey if u want any help don’t hesitate.
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